how you want to trust someone and simply move forward. how you want to leave everything that was in the past there and never look back. how you just want the best for everyone and for everybody to be happy. how you just know that things will work out, eventually. how you have to be patient, because good things really do come to those who wait. but, how long do you have to wait? how long until the change is permanent and things don’t have to crowd the back of your mind with doubt and possible fear that things are either too good to be true or that you may always have to be cautious? how you can make so much progress and still wonder how much further you have to go.
I get sick sooooo easily. it really is a shame how weak my immune system is. i don’t know if it’s because of my heart surgery and the surgeries that I still need to have -___-, because I’m so small, or because that’s just how my body is. I hate feeling weak and dependent.. I swear it is the worst feeling. and I don’t take medicine because I can’t swallow pills and children’s medicine doesn’t do much. but, enough complaining.. I’m sure I’ll get better soon.